My Issues

Again, I'm going off track and I promise to return but as these new things take place I feel compelled to write about them.

I am having an MRI done tomorrow and needless to say I am a bit nervous. I am a claustrophobic person. I do not like small spaces. I do not even like being in elevators for an extended amount of time so I am worried I will not make it through this. I was given the option to take a valium before the procedure and I think I am going to. I am not a fan of taking medicine period because my body responds weird to it sometimes but if I ever want to figure out what is exactly wrong with me, I need to have this done.

I had mentioned in an earlier blog that when I was having my c-section, Dr. Pierson asked me if anyone had ever told me that I had a bicornuate uterus. A normal uterus is shaped like an upside down triangle...my uterus is believed to be shaped like a heart. Some doctors refer to it as a heart, most refer to it as having two horns. When it is shaped this way, a wall has been created in the middle and depending on what side the egg implants on, that is all the room the baby gets to grow. So I finally get an answer as to why my water broke and Kenley came early. She just didn't have anymore room to grow. She only had one side of my uterus and as soon as that got as big as it could, she decided to make her exit.

I had my yearly with Dr. Pierson in August and she told me that she wanted to further investigate my issue to make sure that's really what it was and if there was anything they could do to help the issue for baby #2...that's a whole other story!!!

So I went and had an ultrasound of my kidneys and bladder done. Apparently when you are a baby and your uterus is forming, that along with your kidneys and bladder all form at the same time. So if something was wrong with my uterus, chances were there was something wrong with my kidneys as well. I read stories on the internet about women having bicornuate uteruses and when they checked their kidneys, they discovered they had only one! Well luckily both of my kidneys are there and everything looked fine with that. That same day I also had an internal ultrasound done to get a better picture of my uterus and ovaries. Well that didn't give my doctor the images she was looking for and also presented a possible different issue I had other that a bicornuate uterus. First there was a mass on my left ovary and she wanted to do a biopsy of my uterus just to make sure there wasn't anything funky going on in there. Secondly, she believed I could have a bicornuate uterus but also I could have something called a uterine septum, which is where a bunch of tissue has formed in the middle of the uterus and has created a wall. Making it seem like a bicornuate uterus but it might not be.

So I had the biopsy done, by the way which was no fun, and thankfully everything came back normal. Next step, MRI to get an even better image of what is going on in my body.

So here we are. And all of this isn't being done just to figure things out for baby #2 but its nice to know what is going on inside of you in case you ever need a certain surgery. It is just nice to have all this stuff in my records. As of today there will never be a baby #2. Jim was and is traumatized by Kenley being born so early and he is adament about not having anymore. Myself, I go back and forth about the situation. Some days I want another one because I don't want Kenley to be an only child and other days I think back to the road we have been down and I can not imagine myself doing it again. Plus the days K is hard to take care of or the nights she doesn't sleep that well I think, I don't want to do this again! I love my sleep too much! :). Time will tell. But hopefully after tomorrow I will know exactly what is up with my uterus and where we go from there.